Alone with ‘Abdu’l-Bahá

[Howard Colby Ives had come to ask ‘Abdu’l-Bahá about renunciation. On the walk back to the house in New York the Master spoke of other things, and Ives followed Him up the stairs to His room.]

Again I was alone with ‘Abdu’l-Bahá. There was the bed in which He slept, the chair in which He sat. The late afternoon sunlight lay palely across the floor, but I saw nothing. I was conscious only of Him and that I was alone with Him. The room was very still. No sound came from the street nor from the lower rooms. The silence deepened as He regarded me with that loving, all-embracing, all-understanding look which always melted my heart. A deep content and happiness flooded my being. A little flame seemed lit within my breast. And then ‘Abdu’l-Bahá spoke: He simply asked me if I were interested in renunciation.

Nothing could have been more unexpected. I had entirely forgotten the question which had so engrossed my thoughts an hour since. Or was it that in that hour during which the word renunciation had not been mentioned, all that I wished or needed to know about it had been vouchsafed me? I had no words to answer His question. Was I interested? I could not say I was and I would not say I was not. I stood before Him silent while His whole Being seemed to reach out to embrace me. Then His arm was around me and He led me to the door. I left His Presence with my soul treading the heights.

Source: Howard Colby Ives, Portals to Freedom, ch. 3; quoted in Adib Taherzadeh, The Revelation of Bahá’u’lláh, vol. 3, pp. 340–341.

Collected from bahaistories.com (Subject: silence).

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